Let it Snow!

We’ve been getting some really nice dumps of snow here in Calgary as of late.  I love all the different kinds of snow that nature creates and here in Calgary, we get to see it all.  This morning’s was light and fluffy.  The other day, I could see each individual snowflake as it landed on my black jacket and black car.  I’ve been for long walks and snowshoes in the snow lately and have been reflecting on it.

Snow covers the world in a blanket of beauty.

It slows us down.

It covers the trees and plant life with a layer of insulation to protect from the chilly belows.

The other day, I counted all the blessings that snow brings into my life.  I love this slower pace that hourly shoveling brings.  The way it has of bringing me into the present moment.  I watch the snow hares in my garden throughout the day and I always smile when I see their tracks in the snow on the way to my car each morning.  Today, as I was driving home at sunset, the sky was a mix of ice blue, magenta, and white that took my breath away.  The trees are painted with white.  Even the chain link fences look like lace in the snow!  Who knew a chain link fence could be aesthetically pleasing!  As I walk, I listen to the crunching, squeaking sound under my moccasins and I revel in it.  I felt joy well up in my heart when I saw a snowman the kids had made at the park.  Watching families climb hills with their toboggans over and over simply for the thrill of the ride makes me feel happy inside.  I love the expression on their faces when they get off- or are dumped off- at the bottom of the slopes.

I sit at my desk by the window and write as I look at the snow falling from the skies looking like diamonds a generous gift from the heavens.  I watch the magpies play in the tree in front of me and revel in the flickers that come to visit me.  The world really is a magical place.  I am grateful today that I had the wisdom to stop and take it all in.  I wonder what took YOUR breath away this week.  I’d love to hear your comments.

Here are some photos I took this week:

 

Accepting ALL of Me

In Buddhism, there are three personality types:

  1. grasping
  2. aversive
  3. deluded

The Grasping Types have a vision for how the world “should” be.  They like to help- even when it means overriding their own needs.  They are natural mediators.  Their shining is that they can often come up with creative solutions to the world’s problems.  Their pitfall is that they can sometimes get so caught up with their vision that they refuse to accept the reality of the situation/world where it is in the moment and presence can be hard for them.  There is also a tendency towards “right” and “wrong” thinking- making things into a dichotomy.  Famous Graspers: Martin Luther King Jr.,  Barack Obama, Oprah Winfrey, and Mother Theresa.

Learning that this is just the lens I see life through really helped me to ease up on myself and on the universals (always/never).  I know I am not positive all the time and that used to be unacceptable to me. However, it is the truth in the moment.  It is authentic.  Learning to accept that and also accept that the negative states offer a window into the shadow part of my nature gives me a unique opportunity to see what needs to be healed or shifted.  In that way, negativity is essential to my evolution.

I used to think that I had to get rid of my ego to be enlightened.  I am not sure I would want to do that now.  I know that probably sounds weird considering all the folks out there who are trying to cut theirs away from their being.  To me, the ego is part of being human and learning to live with vulnerability.  It’s been useful to me to hear what my ego is saying and to differentiate that from the voice of my essential mind.  Often, my ego is simply trying to protect me in the best way it knows how.  Unfortunately, it is usually programmed with old stories and does not always make the best choices.  Learning to co-exist with it has been a gift; it has been training for accepting ALL parts of me.  It’s taught me compassion.

Similarly, I am happy to know my shadow so I can keep it in check.  I have found that if I am willing to look in there, it has less of a tendency to be like an untrained puppy peeing and jumping all over the place.  The beauty of getting to know my shadow nature is that I also get to uncover all the stuff I threw in there that I didn’t know what to do with- including my light and my shining.  Sometimes, I sent gifts into my shadow because my family, society, and friends did not value them growing up.  I assumed they were a liability.  And maybe they were at the time. Maybe that was a good survival strategy back then.

Peering into my shadow now is not as overwhelming as it once was.  I am curious when I go in there now and much less judgmental of what I find.  I used to fear that if I went in there, I would discover that all my worst fears about myself and my nature were true.  Although I still get scared when I am going in there at times, I no longer believe that I am a horrible, bad, evil person.  I no longer wonder whether I am worthy of living and the gifts that come with it.  This fact alone makes all those anxiety-ridden journeys to the dark side of my moon more than worthwhile.  I am able to enjoy my life without guilt, doubt or shame.  I have my inner joy back.  I have more space for myself in all my humanness and because of that, I can also give others more space in theirs.  Perhaps that is really the root of peace.

 

Hopi Elders Speak


We Are the Ones We’ve Been Waiting For

You have been telling the people that this is the Eleventh Hour.

Now you must go back and tell the people that this is The Hour.

And there are things to be considered:

Where are you living?

What are you doing?

What are your relationships?

Are you in right relation?

Where is your water?

Know your garden.

It is time to speak your Truth.

Create your community. Be good to each other. And do not look outside yourself for the leader.

This could be a good time!

There is a river flowing now very fast. It is so great and swift that there are those who will be afraid. They will try to hold on to the shore. They will feel they are being torn apart, and they will suffer greatly.

Know the river has its destination. The elders say we must let go of the shore, push off into the middle of the river, keep our eyes open, and our heads above the water. See who is in there with you and celebrate.

At this time in history, we are to take nothing personally. Least of all, ourselves. For the moment that we do, our spiritual growth and journey comes to a halt.

The time of the lone wolf is over. Gather yourselves!

Banish the word struggle from your attitude and your vocabulary.

All that we do now must be done in a sacred manner and in celebration.

We are the ones we’ve been waiting for.

—The Elders Oraibi
Arizona Hopi Nation

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I’m not in London

My Yahoo email was hacked.  I am not stranded in London; do not send money or reply to that email.  The problem has been dealt with.  Password has been changed.  Yahoo is looking into it.  So continue to send your emails.  Actually, I’d appreciate that because I lost all your contact info 🙂  That way, I can save your email addresses again.
Anyhow, thanks for all the calls and well-wishes.  I am well 🙂
Love,

Jen